And
the will therein lieth, which dieth not. Who knoweth the
mystery
of the will, with its vigor? For God is but a great will
pervading all things by nature of its intentness. Man doth not
yield
himself to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only
through
the weakness of his feeble will.--_Joseph Glanvill._
I cannot, for my
soul, remember how, when, or even precisely where, I
first became
acquainted with the lady Ligeia. Long years have since
elapsed, and my
memory is feeble through much suffering. Or, perhaps, I
cannot _now_ bring
these points to mind, because, in truth, the
character of my
beloved, her rare learning, her singular yet placid cast
of beauty, and the
thrilling and enthralling eloquence of her low
musical language,
made their way into my heart by paces so steadily and
stealthily
progressive, that they have been unnoticed and unknown. Yet I
believe that I met
her first and most frequently in some large, old,
decaying city near
the Rhine. Of her family--I have surely heard her
speak. That it is of
a remotely ancient date cannot be doubted. Ligeia!
Ligeia! Buried in
studies of a nature more than all else adapted to
deaden impressions of
the outward world, it is by that sweet word
alone--by
Ligeia--that I bring before mine eyes in fancy the image of
her who is no more.
And now, while I write, a recollection flashes upon
me that I have _never
known_ the paternal name of her who was my friend
and my bethrothed,
and who became the partner of my studies, and finally
the wife of my bosom.
Was it a playful charge on the part of my Ligeia?
or was it a test of
my strength of affection, that I should institute no
inquiries upon this
point? or was it rather a caprice of my own--a
wildly romantic
offering on the shrine of the most passionate devotion?
I but indistinctly
recall the fact itself--what wonder that I have
utterly forgotten the
circumstances which originated or attended it?
And, indeed, if ever
that spirit which is entitled _Romance_--if ever
she, the wan
misty-winged _Ashtophet_ of idolatrous Egypt, presided, as
they tell, over
marriages ill-omened, then most surely she presided over
mine.
There is one dear
topic, however, on which my memory fails me not. It
is the _person_ of
Ligeia. In stature she was tall, somewhat
slender, and, in her
latter days, even emaciated. I would in vain
attempt to portray
the majesty, the quiet ease of her demeanor, or the
incomprehensible
lightness and elasticity of her footfall. She came
and departed as a
shadow. I was never made aware of her entrance into
my closed study, save
by the dear music of her low sweet voice, as she
placed her marble
hand upon my shoulder. In beauty of face no maiden
ever equaled her. It
was the radiance of an opium-dream--an airy and
spirit-lifting vision
more wildly divine than the phantasies which
hovered about the
slumbering souls of the daughters of Delos. Yet her
features were not of
that regular mold which we have been falsely taught
to worship in the
classical labors of the heathen. "There is no exquisite
beauty," says
Bacon, Lord Verulam, speaking truly of all the forms and
_genera_ of beauty,
"without some _strangeness_ in the proportion."
Yet, although I saw
that the features of Ligeia were not of a classic
regularity--although
I perceived that her loveliness was indeed
"exquisite,"
and felt that there was much of "strangeness" pervading it,
yet I have tried in
vain to detect the irregularity and to trace home my
own perception of
"the strange." I examined the contour of the lofty and
pale forehead--it was
faultless--how cold indeed that word when applied
to a majesty so
divine!--the skin rivaling the purest ivory, the
commanding extent and
repose, the gentle prominence of the regions above
the temples; and then
the raven-black, the glossy, the luxuriant, and
naturally-curling
tresses, setting forth the full force of the Homeric
epithet,
"hyacinthine!" I looked at the delicate outlines of the
nose--and nowhere but
in the graceful medallions of the Hebrews had I
beheld a similar
perfection. There were the same luxurious smoothness of
surface, the same
scarcely perceptible tendency to the aquiline, the
same harmoniously
curved nostrils speaking the free spirit. I regarded
the sweet mouth. Here
was indeed the triumph of all things heavenly--the
magnificent turn of
the short upper lip--the soft, voluptuous slumber of
the under--the
dimples which sported, and the color which spoke--the
teeth glancing back,
with a brilliancy almost startling, every ray of
the holy light which
fell upon them in her serene and placid yet most
exultingly radiant of
all smiles. I scrutinized the formation of the
chin--and, here, too,
I found the gentleness of breadth, the softness
and the majesty, the
fullness and the spirituality, of the Greek--the
contour which the god
Apollo revealed but in a dream, to Cleomenes, the
son of the Athenian.
And then I peered into the large eyes of Ligeia.
For eyes we have no
models in the remotely antique. It might have been,
too, that in these
eyes of my beloved lay the secret to which Lord
Verulam alludes. They
were, I must believe, far larger than the ordinary
eyes of our own race.
They were even fuller than the fullest of the
gazelle eyes of the
tribe of the valley of Nourjahad. Yet it was only at
intervals--in moments
of intense excitement--that this peculiarity
became more than
slightly noticeable in Ligeia. And at such moments was
her beauty--in my
heated fancy thus it appeared perhaps--the beauty of
beings either above
or apart from the earth--the beauty of the fabulous
Houri of the Turk.
The hue of the orbs was the most brilliant of black,
and, far over them,
hung jetty lashes of great length. The brows,
slightly irregular in
outline, had the same tint. The "strangeness,"
however, which I
found in the eyes was of a nature distinct from the
formation, or the
color, or the brilliancy of the features, and must,
after all, be
referred to the _expression_. Ah, word of no meaning!
behind whose vast
latitude of mere sound we intrench our ignorance of so
much of the
spiritual. The expression of the eyes of Ligeia! How for
long hours have I
pondered upon it! How have I, through the whole of a
midsummer night,
struggled to fathom it! What was it--that something
more profound than
the well of Democritus--which lay far within the
pupils of my beloved?
What _was_ it? I was possessed with a passion to
discover. Those eyes!
those large, those shining, those divine orbs!
they became to me
twin stars of Leda, and I to them devoutest of
astrologers.
There is no point,
among the many incomprehensible anomalies of the
science of mind, more
thrillingly exciting than the fact--never, I
believe, noticed in
the schools--than in our endeavors to recall to
memory something long
forgotten, we often find ourselves _upon the very
verge_ of
remembrance, without being able, in the end, to remember. And
thus how frequently,
in my intense scrutiny of Ligeia's eyes, have I
felt approaching the
full knowledge of their expression--felt it
approaching--yet not
quite be mine--and so at length entirely depart!
And (strange, oh,
strangest mystery of all!) I found, in the commonest
objects of the
universe, a circle of analogies to that expression. I
mean to say that,
subsequently to the period when Ligeia's beauty passed
into my spirit, there
dwelling as in a shrine, I derived, from many
existences in the
material world, a sentiment such as I felt always
around, within me, by
her large and luminous orbs. Yet not the more
could I define that
sentiment, or analyze, or even steadily view it. I
recognized it, let me
repeat, sometimes in the survey of a rapidly
growing vine--in the
contemplation of a moth, a butterfly, a chrysalis,
a stream of running
water. I have felt it in the ocean--in the falling
of a meteor. I have
felt it in the glances of unusually aged people. And
there are one or two
stars in heaven (one especially, a star of the
sixth magnitude,
double and changeable, to be found near the large star
in Lyra) in a telescopic
scrutiny of which I have been made aware of the
feeling. I have been
filled with it by certain sounds from stringed
instruments, and not
unfrequently by passages from books. Among
innumerable other
instances, I well remember something in a volume of
Joseph Glanvill,
which (perhaps merely from its quaintness--who shall
say?) never failed to
inspire me with the sentiment: "And the will
therein lieth, which
dieth not. Who knoweth the mysteries of the will,
with its vigor? For
God is but a great will pervading all things by
nature of its
intentness. Man doth not yield him to the angels, nor unto
death utterly, save
only through the weakness of his feeble will."
Length of years and
subsequent reflection have enabled me to trace,
indeed, some remote
connection between this passage in the English
moralist and a
portion of the character of Ligeia. An _intensity_ in
thought, action, or
speech was possibly, in her, a result, or at least
an index, of that
gigantic volition which, during our long intercourse,
failed to give other
and more immediate evidence of its existence. Of
all the women whom I
have ever known, she, the outwardly calm, the
ever-placid Ligeia,
was the most violently a prey to the tumultuous
vultures of stern
passion. And of such passion I could form no estimate,
save by the
miraculous expansion of those eyes which at once so
delighted and
appalled me,--by the almost magical melody, modulation,
distinctness, and
placidity of her very low voice,--and by the fierce
energy (rendered
doubly effective by contrast with her manner of
utterance) of the
wild words which she habitually uttered.
I have spoken of the
learning of Ligeia: it was immense--such as I have
never known in woman.
In the classical tongues was she deeply
proficient, and as
far as my own acquaintance extended in regard to the
modern dialects of
Europe, I have never known her at fault. Indeed upon
any theme of the most
admired because simply the most abstruse of the
boasted erudition of
the Academy, have I _ever_ found Ligeia at fault?
How singularly--how
thrillingly, this one point in the nature of my wife
has forced itself, at
this late period only, upon my attention! I said
her knowledge was
such as I have never known in woman--but where
breathes the man who
has traversed, and successfully, _all_ the wide
areas of moral,
physical, and mathematical science? I saw not then what
I now clearly
perceive that the acquisitions of Ligeia were gigantic,
were astounding; yet
I was sufficiently aware of her infinite supremacy
to resign myself,
with a child-like confidence, to her guidance through
the chaotic world of
metaphysical investigation at which I was most
busily occupied
during the earlier years of our marriage. With how vast
a triumph--with how
vivid a delight--with how much of all that is
ethereal in hope did
I _feel_, as she bent over me in studies but little
sought--but less
known,--that delicious vista by slow degrees expanding
before me, down whose
long, gorgeous, and all untrodden path, I might at
length pass onward to
the goal of a wisdom too divinely precious not to
be forbidden.
How poignant, then,
must have been the grief with which, after some
years, I beheld my
well-grounded expectations take wings to themselves
and fly away! Without
Ligeia I was but as a child groping benighted. Her
presence, her
readings alone, rendered vividly luminous the many
mysteries of the
transcendentalism in which we were immersed. Wanting
the radiant luster of
her eyes, letters, lambent and golden, grew duller
than Saturnian lead.
And now those eyes shone less and less frequently
upon the pages over
which I pored. Ligeia grew ill. The wild eyes blazed
with a too--too
glorious effulgence; the pale fingers became of the
transparent waxen hue
of the grave; and the blue veins upon the lofty
forehead swelled and
sank impetuously with the tides of the most gentle
emotion. I saw that
she must die--and I struggled desperately in spirit
with the grim Azrael.
And the struggles of the passionate wife were, to
my astonishment, even
more energetic than my own. There had been much in
her stern nature to
impress me with the belief that, to her, death would
have come without its
terrors; but not so. Words are impotent to convey
any just idea of the
fierceness of resistance with which she wrestled
with the Shadow. I
groaned in anguish at the pitiable spectacle. I would
have soothed--I would
have reasoned; but in the intensity of her wild
desire for life--for
life--_but_ for life--solace and reason were alike
the uttermost of
folly. Yet not until the last instance, amid the most
convulsive writhings
of her fierce spirit, was shaken the external
placidity of her
demeanor. Her voice grew more gentle--grew more
low--yet I would not
wish to dwell upon the wild meaning of the quietly
uttered words. My
brain reeled as I hearkened, entranced, to a melody
more than mortal--to
assumptions and aspirations which mortality had
never before known.
That she loved me I
should not have doubted; and I might have been
easily aware that, in
a bosom such as hers, love would have reigned no
ordinary passion. But
in death only was I fully impressed with the
strength of her
affection. For long hours, detaining my hand, would she
pour out before me
the overflowing of a heart whose more than passionate
devotion amounted to
idolatry. How had I deserved to be so blessed by
such
confessions?--how had I deserved to be so cursed with the removal
of my beloved in the
hour of my making them? But upon this subject I
cannot bear to dilate.
Let me say only, that in Ligeia's more than
womanly abandonment
to a love, alas! all unmerited, all unworthily
bestowed, I at
length, recognized the principle of her longing, with so
wildly earnest a
desire, for the life which was now fleeing so rapidly
away. It is this wild
longing--it is this eager vehemence of desire for
life--_but_ for
life--that I have no power to portray--no utterance
capable of
expressing.
At high noon of the
night in which she departed, beckoning me,
peremptorily, to her
side, she bade me repeat certain verses composed by
herself not many days
before. I obeyed her. They were these:--
Lo! 'tis
a gala night
Within
the lonesome latter years!
An angel
throng, bewinged, bedight
In
veils, and drowned in tears,
Sit in a theatre, to see
A play
of hopes and fears,
While the
orchestra breathes fitfully
The
music of the spheres.
Mimes, in
the form of God on high,
Mutter
and mumble low,
And
hither and thither fly;
Mere
puppets they, who come and go
At
bidding of vast formless things
That
shift the scenery to and fro,
Flapping
from out their condor wings
Invisible Wo!
That
motley drama!--oh, be sure
It
shall not be forgot!
With its Phantom
chased for evermore
By a
crowd that seize it not,
Through a
circle that ever returneth in
To the
self-same spot;
And much
of Madness, and more of Sin
And
Horror, the soul of the plot!
But see,
amid the mimic rout,
A crawling shape intrude!
A
blood-red thing that writhes from out
The
scenic solitude!
It
writhes!--it writhes!--with mortal pangs
The
mimes become its food,
And the
seraphs sob at vermin fangs
In
human gore imbued.
Out--out
are the lights--out all:
And
over each quivering form,
The
curtain, a funeral pall,
Comes
down with the rush of a storm--
And the
angels, all pallid and wan,
Uprising, unveiling, affirm
That the
play is the tragedy, "Man,"
And its
hero, the conqueror Worm.
"O God!"
half shrieked Ligeia, leaping to her feet and extending her
arms aloft with a
spasmodic movement, as I made an end of these
lines--"O God! O
Divine Father!--shall these things be undeviatingly
so?--shall this
conqueror be not once conquered? Are we not part and
parcel in Thee?
Who--who knoweth the mysteries of the will with its
vigor? Man doth not
yield him to the angels, _nor unto death utterly_,
save only through the
weakness of his feeble will."
And now, as if
exhausted with emotion, she suffered her white arms to
fall, and returned
solemnly to her bed of death. And as she breathed her
last sighs, there
came mingled with them a low murmur from her lips. I
bent to them my ear,
and distinguished, again, the concluding words of
the passage in
Glanvill: "_Man doth not yield him to the angels, nor
unto death utterly,
save only through the weakness of his feeble will._"
She died: and I,
crushed into the very dust with sorrow, could no longer
endure the lonely
desolation of my dwelling in the dim and decaying
city by the Rhine. I
had no lack of what the world calls wealth. Ligeia
had brought me far
more, very far more, than ordinarily falls to the lot
of mortals. After a
few months, therefore, of weary and aimless
wandering, I
purchased and put in some repair, an abbey, which I shall
not name, in one of
the wildest and least frequented portions of fair
England. The gloomy
and dreary grandeur of the building, the almost
savage aspect of the
domain, the many melancholy and time-honored
memories connected
with both, had much in unison with the feelings of
utter abandonment
which had driven me into that remote and unsocial
region of the
country. Yet although the external abbey, with its verdant
decay hanging about
it, suffered but little alteration, I gave way, with
a child-like
perversity, and perchance with a faint hope of alleviating
my sorrows, to a
display of more than regal magnificence within. For
such follies, even in
childhood, I had imbibed a taste, and now they
came back to me as if
in the dotage of grief. Alas, I feel how much even
of incipient madness
might have been discovered in the gorgeous and
fantastic draperies,
in the solemn carvings of Egypt, in the wild
cornices and
furniture, in the Bedlam patterns of the carpets of tufted
gold! I had become a
bounden slave in the trammels of opium, and my
labors and my orders
had taken a coloring from my dreams. But these
absurdities I must
not pause to detail. Let me speak only of that one
chamber, ever
accursed, whither, in a moment of mental alienation, I led
from the altar as my
bride--as the successor of the unforgotten
Ligeia--the
fair-haired and blue-eyed Lady Rowena Trevanion, of
Tremaine.
There is no
individual portion of the architecture and decoration of
that bridal chamber
which is not visibly before me. Where were the souls
of the haughty family
of the bride, when, through thirst of gold, they
permitted to pass the
threshold of an apartment _so_ bedecked, a maiden
and a daughter so
beloved? I have said, that I minutely remember the
details of the
chamber--yet I am sadly forgetful on topics of deep
moment; and here
there was no system, no keeping, in the fantastic
display to take hold
upon the memory. The room lay in a high turret of
the castellated
abbey, was pentagonal in shape, and of capacious size.
Occupying the whole
southern face of the pentagonal was the sole
window--an immense
sheet of unbroken glass from Venice--a single pane,
and tinted of a
leaden hue, so that the rays of either the sun or moon
passing through it,
fell with a ghastly luster on the objects within.
Over the upper
portion of this huge window extended the trellis-work of
an aged vine, which
clambered up the massy walls of the turret. The
ceiling, of
gloomy-looking oak, was excessively lofty, vaulted, and
elaborately fretted
with the wildest and most grotesque specimens of a
semi-Gothic,
semi-Druidical device. From out the most central recess of
this melancholy vaulting,
depended, by a single chain of gold with long
links, a huge censer
of the same metal, Saracenic in pattern, and with
many perforations so
contrived that there writhed in and out of them, as
if endued with a
serpent vitality, a continual succession of
parti-colored fires.
Some few ottomans and
golden candelabra, of Eastern figure, were in
various stations
about; and there was the couch, too--the bridal
couch--of an Indian
model, and low, and sculptured of solid ebony, with
a pall-like canopy
above. In each of the angles of the chamber stood on
end a gigantic
sarcophagus of black granite, from the tombs of the kings
over against Luxor,
with their aged lids full of immemorial sculpture.
But in the draping of
the apartment lay, alas! the chief phantasy of
all. The lofty walls,
gigantic in height--even unproportionably so--were
hung from summit to
foot, in vast folds, with a heavy and
massive-looking
tapestry--tapestry of a material which was found alike
as a carpet on the
floor, as a covering for the ottomans and the ebony
bed, as a canopy for
the bed, and as the gorgeous volutes of the
curtains which
partially shaded the window. The material was the richest
cloth of gold. It was
spotted all over, at irregular intervals, with
arabesque figures,
about a foot in diameter, and wrought upon the cloth
in patterns of the
most jetty black. But these figures partook of the
true character of the
arabesque only when regarded from a single point
of view. By a
contrivance now common, and indeed traceable to a very
remote period of
antiquity, they were made changeable in aspect. To one
entering the room,
they bore the appearance of simple monstrosities; but
upon a farther
advance, this appearance gradually departed; and, step by
step, as the visitor
moved his station in the chamber, he saw himself
surrounded by an
endless succession of the ghastly forms which belong to
the superstition of
the Norman, or arise in the guilty slumbers of the
monk. The
phantasmagoric effect was vastly heightened by the artificial
introduction of a
strong continual current of wind behind the
draperies--giving a
hideous and uneasy animation to the whole.
In halls such as
these--in a bridal chamber such as this--I passed, with
the Lady of Tremaine,
the unhallowed hours of the first month of our
marriage--passed them
with but little disquietude. That my wife dreaded
the fierce moodiness
of my temper--that she shunned me, and loved me but
little--I could not
help perceiving; but it gave me rather pleasure than
otherwise. I loathed
her with a hatred belonging more to demon than to
man. My memory flew
back (oh, with what intensity of regret!) to Ligeia,
the beloved, the
august, the beautiful, the entombed. I reveled in
recollections of her
purity, of her wisdom, of her lofty--her ethereal
nature, of her
passionate, her idolatrous love. Now, then, did my spirit
fully and freely burn
with more than all the fires of her own. In the
excitement of my
opium dreams (for I was habitually fettered in the
shackles of the
drug), I would call aloud upon her name, during the
silence of the night,
or among the sheltered recesses of the glens by
day, as if, through
the wild eagerness, the solemn passion, the
consuming ardor of my
longing for the departed, I could restore her to
the pathways she had
abandoned--ah, _could_ it be forever?--upon the
earth.
About the
commencement of the second month of the marriage, the Lady
Rowena was attacked
with sudden illness, from which her recovery was
slow. The fever which
consumed her rendered her nights uneasy; and in
her perturbed state
of half-slumber, she spoke of sounds, and of
motions, in and about
the chamber of the turret, which I concluded had
no origin save in the
distemper of her fancy, or perhaps in the
phantasmagoric
influences of the chamber itself. She became at length
convalescent--finally,
well. Yet but a second more violent disorder
again threw her upon
a bed of suffering; and from this attack her frame,
at all times feeble,
never altogether recovered. Her illnesses were,
after this epoch, of
alarming character, and of more alarming
recurrence, defying
alike the knowledge and the great exertions of her
physicians. With the
increase of the chronic disease, which had thus,
apparently, taken too
sure hold upon her constitution to be eradicated
by human means, I
could not fail to observe a similar increase in the
nervous irritation of
her temperament, and in her excitability by
trivial causes of
fear. She spoke again, and now more frequently and
pertinaciously, of
the sounds--of the slight sounds--and of the unusual
motions among the
tapestries, to which she had formerly alluded.
One night, near the
closing in of September, she pressed this
distressing subject
with more than usual emphasis upon my attention. She
had just awakened from
an unquiet slumber, and I had been watching, with
feelings half of
anxiety, half of vague terror, the workings of her
emaciated
countenance. I sat by the side of her ebony bed, upon one of
the ottomans of
India. She partly arose, and spoke, in an earnest low
whisper, of sounds
which she _then_ heard, but which I could not
hear--of motions
which she _then_ saw, but which I could not perceive.
The wind was rushing
hurriedly behind the tapestries, and I wished to
show her (what, let
me confess it, I could not _all_ believe) that those
almost inarticulate
breathings, and those very gentle variations of the
figures upon the
wall, were but the natural effects of that customary
rushing of the wind. But
a deadly pallor, overspreading her face, had
proved to me that my
exertions to reassure her would be fruitless. She
appeared to be
fainting, and no attendants were within call. I
remembered where was
deposited a decanter of light wine which had been
ordered by her
physicians, and hastened across the chamber to procure
it. But, as I stepped
beneath the light of the censer, two
circumstances of a
startling nature attracted my attention. I had felt
that some palpable
although invisible object had passed lightly by my
person; and I saw
that there lay upon the golden carpet, in the very
middle of the rich
luster thrown from the censer, a shadow--a faint,
indefinite shadow of
angelic aspect--such as might be fancied for the
shadow of a shade.
But I was wild with the excitement of an immoderate
dose of opium, and
heeded these things but little, nor spoke of them to
Rowena. Having found
the wine, I recrossed the chamber, and poured out a
gobletful, which I
held to the lips of the fainting lady. She had now
partially recovered,
however, and took the vessel herself, while I sank
upon an ottoman near
me, with my eyes fastened upon her person. It was
then that I became
distinctly aware of a gentle footfall upon the
carpet, and near the
couch; and in a second thereafter, as Rowena was in
the act of raising
the wine to her lips, I saw, or may have dreamed that
I saw, fall within
the goblet, as if from some invisible spring in the
atmosphere of the
room, three or four large drops of a brilliant and
ruby colored fluid.
If this I saw--not so Rowena. She swallowed the wine
unhesitatingly, and I
forebore to speak to her of a circumstance which
must, after all, I
considered, have been but the suggestion of a vivid
imagination, rendered
morbidly active by the terror of the lady, by the
opium, and by the
hour.
Yet I cannot conceal
[Transcriber's note: The original reads "coneal".]
it from my own
perception that, immediately subsequent to the fall of
the ruby drops, a
rapid change for the worse took place in the disorder
of my wife; so that,
on the third subsequent night, the hands of her
menials prepared her
for the tomb, and on the fourth, I sat alone, with
her shrouded body, in
that fantastic chamber which had received her as
my bride. Wild
visions, opium-engendered, flitted, shadow-like, before
me. I gazed with
unquiet eye upon the sarcophagi in the angles of the
room, upon the
varying figures of the drapery, and upon the writhing of
the parti-colored
fires in the censer overhead. My eyes then fell, as I
called to mind the
circumstances of a former night, to the spot beneath
the glare of the
censer where I had seen the faint traces of the shadow.
It was there,
however, no longer; and breathing with greater freedom, I
turned my glances to
the pallid and rigid figure upon the bed. Then
rushed upon me a
thousand memories of Ligeia--and then came back upon my
heart, with the
turbulent violence of a flood, the whole of that
unutterable woe with
which I had regarded _her_ thus enshrouded. The
night waned; and still,
with a bosom full of bitter thoughts of the one
only and supremely
beloved, I remained gazing upon the body of Rowena.
It might have been
midnight, or perhaps earlier, or later, for I had
taken no note of
time, when a sob, low, gentle, but very distinct,
startled me from my
revery. I _felt_ that it came from the bed of
ebony--the bed of
death. I listened in an agony of superstitious
terror--but there was
no repetition of the sound. I strained my vision
to detect any motion
in the corpse--but there was not the slightest
perceptible. Yet I
could not have been deceived. I _had_ heard the
noise, however faint,
and my soul was awakened within me. I resolutely
and perseveringly
kept my attention riveted upon the body. Many minutes
elapsed before any
circumstance occurred tending to throw light upon the
mystery. At length it
became evident that a slight, a very feeble, and
barely noticeable
tinge of color had flushed up within the cheeks, and
along the sunken small
veins of the eyelids. Through a species of
unutterable horror
and awe, for which the language of mortality has no
sufficiently
energetic expression, I felt my heart cease to beat, my
limbs grow rigid
where I sat. Yet a sense of duty finally operated to
restore my
self-possession. I could no longer doubt that we had been
precipitate in our
preparations--that Rowena still lived. It was
necessary that some
immediate exertion be made; yet the turret was
altogether apart from
the portion of the abbey tenanted by the
servants--there were
none within call--I had no means of summoning them
to my aid without
leaving the room for many minutes--and this I could
not venture to do. I
therefore struggled alone in my endeavors to call
back the spirit still
hovering. In a short period it was certain,
however, that a
relapse had taken place; the color disappeared from both
eyelid and cheek,
leaving a wanness even more than that of marble; the
lips became doubly
shriveled and pinched up in the ghastly expression of
death; a repulsive
clamminess and coldness overspread rapidly the
surface of the body;
and all the usual rigorous stiffness immediately
supervened. I fell
back with a shudder upon the couch from which I had
been so startlingly
aroused, and again gave myself up to passionate
waking visions of
Ligeia.
An hour thus elapsed,
when (could it be possible?) I was a second time
aware of some vague
sound issuing from the region of the bed. I
listened--in
extremity of horror. The sound came again--it was a sigh.
Rushing to the
corpse, I saw--distinctly saw--a tremor upon the lips. In
a minute afterward
they relaxed, disclosing a bright line of the pearly
teeth. Amazement now
struggled in my bosom with the profound awe which
had hitherto reigned
there alone. I felt that my vision grew dim, that
my reason wandered;
and it was only by a violent effort that I at length
succeeded in nerving
myself to the task which duty thus once more had
pointed out. There
was now a partial glow upon the forehead and upon the
cheek and throat; a
perceptible warmth pervaded the whole frame; there
was even a slight
pulsation at the heart. The lady _lived_; and with
redoubled ardor I
betook myself to the task of restoration. I chafed and
bathed the temples
and the hands and used every exertion which
experience, and no
little medical reading, could suggest. But in vain.
Suddenly, the color
fled, the pulsation ceased, the lips resumed the
expression of the
dead, and, in an instant afterward, the whole body
took upon itself the
icy chilliness, the livid hue, the intense
rigidity, the sunken
outline, and all the loathsome peculiarities of
that which has been,
for many days, a tenant of the tomb.
And again I sunk into
visions of Ligeia--and again (what marvel that I
shudder while I
write?), _again_ there reached my ears a low sob from
the region of the
ebony bed. But why shall I minutely detail the
unspeakable horrors
of that night? Why shall I pause to relate how, time
after time, until
near the period of the gray dawn, this hideous drama
of revivification was
repeated; how each terrific relapse was only into
a sterner and
apparently more irredeemable death; how each agony wore
the aspect of a
struggle with some invisible foe; and how each struggle
was succeeded by I
know not what of wild change in the personal
appearance of the
corpse? Let me hurry to a conclusion.
The greater part of
the fearful night had worn away, and she who had
been dead once again
stirred--and now more vigorously than hitherto,
although arousing
from a dissolution more appalling in its utter
hopelessness than
any. I had long ceased to struggle or to move, and
remained sitting
rigidly upon the ottoman, a helpless prey to a whirl
of violent emotions,
of which extreme awe was perhaps the least
terrible, the least
consuming. The corpse, I repeat, stirred, and now
more vigorously than
before. The hues of life flushed up with unwonted
energy into the
countenance--the limbs relaxed--and, save that the
eyelids were yet
pressed heavily together, and that the bandages and
draperies of the
grave still imparted their charnel character to the
figure, I might have
dreamed that Rowena had indeed shaken off, utterly,
the fetters of Death.
But if this idea was not, even then, altogether
adopted, I could at
least doubt no longer, when, arising from the bed,
tottering, with
feeble steps, with closed eyes, and with the manner of
one bewildered in a
dream, the thing that was enshrouded advanced boldly
and palpably into the
middle of the apartment.
I trembled not--I
stirred not--for a crowd of unutterable fancies
connected with the
air, the stature, the demeanor, of the figure,
rushing hurriedly
through my brain, had paralyzed--had chilled me into
stone. I stirred
not--but gazed upon the apparition. There was a mad
disorder in my
thoughts--a tumult unappeasable. Could it, indeed, be the
_living_ Rowena who
confronted me? Could it, indeed, be Rowena _at
all_--the
fair-haired, the blue-eyed Lady Rowena Trevanion of Tremaine?
Why, _why_ should I
doubt it? The bandage lay heavily about the
mouth--but then might
it not be the mouth of the breathing Lady of
Tremaine? And the
cheeks--there were the roses as in her noon of
life--yes, these
might indeed be the fair cheeks of the living Lady of
Tremaine. And the
chin, with its dimples, as in health, might it not be
hers?--but _had she
then grown taller since her malady?_ What
inexpressible madness
seized me with that thought? One bound, and I had
reached her feet!
Shrinking from my touch, she let fall from her head,
unloosened, the
ghastly cerements which had confined it, and there
streamed forth into
the rushing atmosphere of the chamber huge masses of
long and disheveled
hair; _it was blacker than the raven wings of
midnight._ And now
slowly opened _the eyes_ of the figure which stood
before me. "Here
then, at least," I shrieked aloud, "can I never--can I
never be
mistaken--these are the full, and the black, and the wild
eyes--of my lost
love--of the Lady--of the LADY LIGEIA."
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